What is His view?
Tuesday was a difficult day. The morning was spent trying to navigate anxiety around school but despite all of the tools in my toolkit - nothing worked. In the end I jumped in bed with my child - wrapped them in my arms and cried with them. The evening was spent with my son having had a situation at soccer training and letting us know he is quitting on his dream because he is disabled and might as well just give up because it always ends the same.
All the mumma thoughts have been racing...how do I help my kids?....why aren't things working?..... why is it so hard?.....why did his soccer coach say that?... and the list goes on....
As I was walking, about to burst into tears, I felt God remind me of the truth that I have learnt time and time and time again over the past 10 years, but in the hustle and the busy and the fatigue had momentarily forgotten, which is asking God for His view.
God what are you teaching me? What are you teaching Larissa and Zach? How will you be glorified through this? How do you want me to respond? What is your heavenly strategy?
When I start asking Kingdom questions, my eyes suddenly lift from Earthly circumstances and my spirit follows. I start to envision my kids how God sees them. I start to remember the prophetic words, I start to remember the path He has forged up until this point that is miraculous and that every single tiny situation that they go through is part of His perfect plan... even the painful stuff. He reminded me that I had to go through my own personal pain to know God the way I do and my kids will have to go through pain as well, even though as a Mum I want to do everything in my power to take away pain. He said 'I know your heart is breaking for your daughter but I will use every tear - trust me - this is temporary but I am eternal.' I start to remember that my job is simply to keep my spirit in tune with His so that His fruit comes out of me in the way I respond and handle each situation.
Then the download came...for the sickness I want the whole family to lay hands on her together and I will heal her because your family are called to facilitate my healing together. For your boy ‘I want you to know that this soccer club was my choice and the outcome is going to be different from what you are used to - they are going to help your boy shine.’
Then the tears flowed...the peace came and then I remembered the enemy's sneaky ways .... that he always comes in through tiredness and that he always highlights very loudly the circumstances, the negative words, the hopelessness, the failings, the weaknesses, the Earthly and temporary stuff.
At around lunchtime yesterday Brett phoned me after talking to the soccer club and he said "Amy this club is different from anything we have ever experienced - they care about our boy so much"..(Burst into tears)
When you get the phone call from school about your child - be quick to get His view!
When they run away, yell, punch, scream, defy, rebel - be quick to get His view!
When they are down and filled with shame & condemnation about themselves - be quick to get His view!
When you feel inadequate and want to eat icecream (we all know my soul feed lol) - be quick to get His view!
PRAYER
Thank you Father for these incredible parents and their precious kids and I thank you that every story is handwritten by you and the testimonies of what our kids are going to do to build Your Kingdom will be WILD because the pathway is certainly Wild! Amen
Amy Jorgensen
